I've had a rough few weeks, and couple that with the fact that even if I'm in a good mood, using my computer usually makes me want to break something, I've just kind of avoided any serious computer stuff altogether. Which isn't an excuse, but it is a reason.
So, like I said, I've been having some rough times the last few weeks. What am I doing about it? Well, I'm glad you asked.
I've been trying -- albeit somewhat half-heartedly -- to take some control of my life. A while ago I wrote about a blog post on OwningPink.com that discussed how many people may be able to get off antidepressants and help their moods themselves through exercise, eating, and the like. When I wrote about it, I kind of scoffed at the idea, and pointed out that sometimes, medication can be empowering, rather than disempowering.
The thing is, ever since I wrote about that blog post, I haven't been able to forget it. It kind of lodged in my brain and won't leave. I still don't know if I buy all of what she's selling, but I know I'm sure tired of feeling like crap. I'd also like to avoid further ECT treatments, and further hospitalizations (both options that have been discussed the last week or so).
I've taken a few steps to try to help myself out. I said before that it was "half-heartedly," because I don't really have the energy to do much of anything full-throttle, and of course, if I fail, I can say that I only half-assed it, so that's why I failed (nothing like setting yourself up for failure, eh?). So this is what I've done:
- Stopped drinking Diet Coke, and all soda. I've read so much about how bad diet pop is for your body, and how it makes you fatter, plus I know there are bad chemicals in there
- Thought about going all vegan/organic, and stopped eating meat. I am approaching this in stages; first, the meat, then all the animal or not-cruelty-free products. I'd like to move my family over to this kind of eating as well, and I found an interesting food blog called PeasandThankYou.com that has an associated cookbook. All the food is family-friendly and vegan. Again, I'm doing this because I'm tired of thinking about the chemicals, hormones, and other icky stuff that is in our food -- and, even more so, in my kid's food
- Started journalling again
- Got a new therapist, and have actually kept my appointments with her
- Tried to do more yoga, on a more regular basis. I had to give up the treadmill because of my wonderful hernia (which I'll have fixed in about three weeks), but yoga doesn't bother me
- Have been getting out of the house more. Rather than sleeping whenever I have a babysitter, I've been trying, at least for a little while, to go run some errands or even just drive around in order to get out of the house. There are days when I really, truly, detest my house -- I want to bash the walls with a baseball bat. I think that's a sign that I need to get out